Time sure does fly when your with loved ones

I always tell Amanda that even though life can be SO rough sometimes with 2 kids, just enjoy the ride. Enjoy the noise. Enjoy the chaos. Enjoy the tears, smiles, laughs.

I would do anything to have a chaotic life right now. I wish for loudness in my house. I wish for a messy household. Too much alone time is never a good thing. I went from being so busy in Indiana to not having much at all in Switzerland. My laundry day is my most packed day. When I don't have people here with me the clock seems to stop. When I had my mom and Steve here it was always, "it is already 5????" How does this happen? When we are with people we love we don't really think about anything else in the world. Everything that matters is there. I say loved ones because believe me I have been with people I didn't care for and time still stops then too. It is not fun picking through your brain of what to say next. I have prayed to God before some get together's. God, please give me things to talk about. HA. If you are reading this, believe me it is not you.

I can't wait for the moment my son or daughter comes home for the first time. June couldn't get here fast enough. I long for the sleepless nights and the jam packed days. I can't wait to feel my purpose in life. I know I will be a good Mom. Had I not had Switzerland I don't know if I would be feeling this way. I know a lot of people that have kids but don't feel the love and compassion I have. I have known what it is like to be for silence to GO AWAY. Most people would die for some peace and quiet. I have had too much. I will be a different Mom because of this experience. Before moving I always needed to be around people. I always was waiting for the next thing to happen. Coffee at Starbucks has now turned into a huge event for me. Oh boy, if I have a Starbucks outing today that might take up 3 hours of my time. I will enjoy the small moments. The less eventful moments of baby G just sleeping. I will know how much more the baby has added to my life. The silent moments will be few and far between. I can't wait.