My purpose in Basel

I have prayed so hard to God to make me feel like I have a purpose in Switzerland. Not just to not feel lonely but also that I am living out God's plan. I had no idea that in Europe, people either don't talk about their religion or they don't have one. In the Midwest people speak open about it constantly. God has now shown me 3 friends that are non believers. God has given me the strength to basically word vomit that I am a Christian, and I love the Lord. For some reason in the first 15 minutes of meeting these new people I am so proud to blurt out the fact that I am a believer. This is not my personality at all so I know the Holy Spirit is working within me. I have also gotten to the age to where if you don't accept me for me being a strong Christian then I don't need you in my life. I accept non believers, and in fact I know more people that don't believe then do, so why are you judging me?

I have had the amazing opportunities to have conversations with friends about the Lord. I, myself, obviously don't know that much but I can share what I do know. A lot of times I will recommend a book or tell them to research it to get to the "right" answer. It makes me feel so much joy to have such a great friend like God that is with me all the time. I am often alone here but I feel His presence all the time. Crazy. Crazy. Crazy. I never thought at my age I would feel so close to Him. It makes me love Andy so much more too. Knowing that I married a man of God attracts me to him so much. That he guides his life by principles of the Lord :) I could have never married differently but still it is so comforting that I found such an amazing man. I want others to feel how happy I am everyday. I want everyone to know that they don't have to be scared of death. Death is just the beginning of the most amazing life possible. Through many family and friends I have been taught to pray about EVERYTHING. God wants us to always be praying so praying for a parking spot is not dumb. He wants to hear us always. This has changed my life too. I once was such an anxious person. I still struggle some with this, but nothing like I used too. I would worry so much about my future when really I cannot control any of it. Now I put every single thing in God's hands and He takes care of it. I mean how amazing is that. That God wants our pain and suffering. I moved out to Switzerland with Andy knowing that God would provide for me. I knew God would strengthen my marriage and understand the sacrifice I made to move here with him. Is it so hard being away from my family? More then you will ever understand. There are moments when I look at a picture of my niece and nephews and my heart sinks. At that very moment in time the world stops. I get overwhelmed with such sadness that I cannot go hug my family. I pray instantly and God makes it all better. I know, He knows it is so tough for me to be away. He is rewarding me for doing all of this. I live an absolutely amazing life in Basel where I don't need to work. Not a lot of people ever end up living like that.

I am Blessed.