Working out again!!!

I told God that all I wanted in life was to not be hurt anymore. I told him I would be completely content with EVERYTHING if I could just work out and not feel pain. It has been over a year that my body has been in pain. I would walk down the street and feel shooting pain down my legs and in my tailbone. I would pray everyday just to be normal again. I would think to myself I am only 24, this cannot be happening. A big reason I was so happy to move out to Basel was I knew I could just focus on getting back to my old self. I am extremely happy 20-30 pounds less then I am right now. Not that I fixate on my weight but to be my perfect, healthy, athletic self would be amazing. If I want to be a mom in the next 2 years I want to be the best mother I can be.

I have found that the harder I push myself, the more my body returns back to normal. Isn't this odd? I would feel that the harder I pushed, the worse I would feel. Well for the first year this was the case, now for some reason it is all working out. My PT did say that I needed to get my core strong because that is the structure that supports everything else. I think I hurt myself when I was lifting for 6 months with my mom. I didn't ever stretch after, so I think I took a toll on my body. :(

Back to the point of this blog. I can WORKOUT NOW!!!! I am so excited!!! I walk to the gym, workout for an hour, and walk home from the gym. Not to mention all the walking day to day just running errands. I am writing this because I always want to remember what I promised God. If he gave me my body back that is all I wanted in life. I cannot take it for granted one bit. I thought for the rest of my life I wouldn't be able to be fit again and now I am given a 2nd chance. I know that being in Basel, and having Andy work a lot I need to be able to get my stress out in the gym. 2 hours of my day everyday is devoted to the gym! Without this, I honestly don't know what I would do. Whenever I get sad about something, I pinch myself and remember what life was like before :)