38 weeks and almost there

I am not going to lie the past few weeks have been ROUGH. My back started to hurt so bad that I ended up in the Emergency Room. My heartburn is terrible, and I now take a medicine daily for that. Hormones are raging. One minute I am on top of the world, the next I am sad. I have stretch marks. Yes, gross. And guess what? They itch. Yes I said it, they itch so bad that it wakes me up in the middle of EVERY night. I have to put lotion on them and get an ice pack. I am always so tired. I feel that I could sleep at any moment but then when I try I can't. Because my back hurts, I can't really do much. I can't take walks or walk around Basel much. It is depressing. There, I said it all, and I like being honest. Throughout this pregnancy I have felt that women do NOT tell the truth when being pregnant. Yes, I get it, some have this amazing pregnancy where they gain 10 pounds, get zero stretch marks and have energy for days. This is rare. Where are all the women explaining how they really feel? Because of this lack of honesty it can make the process feel very lonely. I don't have a glow about me. This is TMI but really, women's sex drive goes UP?? Seriously? Seriously? Your sex drive goes up? I don't believe it in the slightest. I have now added 30 pounds to my already bigger boned body and my sex drive should go up? I have stretch marks all around my stomach that if I gasp at in the morning I know Andy is thinking what did I get myself into. Each night when I roll over there is a grunt noise that goes with it. I sound like a pig when it is growling for its food. Where in this equation does sex fit in? Now don't even get me started on HOW you actually have sex while 38 weeks pregnant. The images scare me.

I do get it. At the end of this 10 months of being pregnant there is a life that is born. So sweet. I do get that some women would KILL to have a baby. I understand my life will change forever the second I see this baby. That doesn't change the fact that getting to this point is hard. It is an emotional roller coaster that you ride for almost a year. Is it worth it, yes. But can we please be real about the hardships we endure while pregnant? Let's help each other out and be there for one another.