I've always wondered what it would be like to be truly happy. Is it to have more money? More clothes? More time with family? I believe I finally found my happiness. Faith.
Now this doesn't believe that everyday I achieve full happiness. It is a constant battle that leads me to God everyday. I have always been a somewhat happy person but found myself a lot of times not feeling happy in the exact moment. The feeling of wanting to be somewhere else that very moment. Well what good is that? Every time I do something, I want to be doing something else. Am I even living? This lead me to pray everyday to feel content with my life. Not the content of I like where my life is headed, but the feeling that every second is perfect and I would rather be no where else. Why would I be hanging out with my sister in Indiana, wishing I was with Andy in England? Doesn't this just leave a person feeling empty inside? Well it did me. I was feeling that I should always be doing something bigger and better.
Through a continual prayer, God has allowed me to feel content at every moment. I now see things about Celia that I never would have seen because I was busy thinking about people on Facebook. Oh, I wonder where that person is going out tonight. I was missing out on the little phrases Celia says that are so funny. Or I miss the way she always flings her hair back so fast so to not miss a second of what she is playing with. Or with Cruz. My little Cruz who is such a snuggler. If I am on my phone and or computer thinking of something else I miss him tapping on my shoulder. Or smiling behind me for no reason at all. All of these precious moments in my life not wasted anymore because I have found how to be content. It is not about worrying how the next day will be. It is about seeing what is in front on you today.
Thanks Lord for helping me find this.
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