Monday, January 30, 2012

Sebastian and Nancy.

Okay so this morning was a rough one. My nephew, Sebastian was born with a heart murmur and today was the day the heart doctor decided if he needed surgery on his heart. Obviously this made us all just so sick to our stomachs. This little 5 month old boy that does nothing but smile might have to get heart surgery. All I have been doing is praying about it. Praying, Praying and more praying.

I couldn't sleep last night just thinking about this appointment. Amanda, my sister, wanted me to go with her for support. I of course said yes without hesitation. I prayed that I would find the right words to say to her during the visit, but are there any right words? I was trying to read Celia books and I was shaking because I was so scared. All I could think about was what was going through Mandy's head.

We go into the ultrasound room, and there was Nancy. I believe she was sent from God to be there with us that very moment. She instantly made us feel at ease. She put on cartoons for Celia and proceeded to talk to us about life. She must know how hard it is to have your own child sitting on a bed getting an ultrasound done on his heart. Nancy makes it seem like it is just another Monday. How could she act like this though,  she sees kids with cancer everyday of her life. Shouldn't she be angry? Hostile? Wanting more from life then seeing sick people? The answer to all of that is simply no. She feels happy to be alive everyday and wants the world to know it.

Nancy says she has learned so many lessons from these children. If we give up in our minds and think our time here on Earth is over, then it is. If we make the choice to get up everyday with a positive attitude then we can overcome most everything. Children that have a disease don't feel sorry for themselves because they don't know any better. When we adults come down with something we instantly feel like our time is up. We are defeated and nothing can change that. We let our minds drift off into this dark abyss and we never return to our happy place. Now I am not saying this for all people. I know plenty of adults in my life that have stared death in the face and not missed a beat of life. Nancy decided that she is going to wake up everyday and be happy. Can you say the same?

All in all today was a day I will remember for the rest of my life. Not only because my little Sebastian is okay but because I learned something unforgettable. I learned that it is important to be happy everyday no matter what the circumstances. You never know what the mind can overcome.

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